Is the O.T.O usually accepting of individuals? I’m actually a bit obese now. I exploit to be within the US Military and I used to be fairly slim however I’ve gained numerous weight since I’ve gotten out. I am very heavy. I wish to be a part of the O.T.O and attend features however i am actually very frightened that I cannot be accepted. I needed to have surgical procedure and since then I have never been in a position to run. Both due to the surgical procedure or simply as a result of i’ve had issue preventing by the ache of getting in form once more. I wish to attend a Gnostic Mass not less than one time in my life. I might actually desire to affix the O.T.O however i’ve many issues I suppose I ought to determine earlier than that time.
Does anybody have any recommendation? Ought to I simply wait till I can get myself collectively and again in form earlier than I trouble? Thelema is about discovering what your Will is and doing simply that however being in my present form. it seems I haven’t got numerous self-discipline and I’ve hardly received room to speak.
I have been working towards sigil magick for the previous 6ish weeks and I’ve notived everytime I create a sigil I get moderately drained in the course of the act. Is that this regular or am I overthinking issues? Has anybody had comparable experiences? Can anybody clarify?
First off: I’m a Satanist, and a few individuals right here could know me as a moderator of comparable communities right here on Reddit.
/r/EsotericOccult most lately studied Liber AL as our [book of the quarter](https://www.reddit.com/r/EsotericOccult/feedback/5ul17r/book_of_the_quarter_discussion_liber_al_vel_legis/), and it was roughly my first expertise studying about Thelema. I have been attempting to border a few of Thelema in my Satanic mind-set to assist myself higher perceive the fabric. I have been attempting to study extra about Thelema, as a result of I do not see it as being practically as completely different from my very own Satanism as I’ve learn on another boards.
So I began a podcast a few months in the past and we simply recorded an episode on Alesiter Crowley. I would like to listen to opinions on a educated neighborhood on how we did. Take note I do know finding out Crowley really can take a lifetime.